I've totally neglected my blog. I'm a bad, bad blogger. But I have a pretty good reason, I think. I haven't come out on Facebook or to a lot of people but I'll go ahead and post it here because nobody really reads my blog anyway! I'm pregnant with my 5th blessing! I'm happy and kinda shocked because I thought it would be harder at my age. Apparently my fertility isn't as diminished as many women my age. I pray for couples out there ttc to receive this blessing. I'm following my Above Rubies group and regularly pray for expectant women and women ttc from there. As far as being a good wife, that's not going so well. But my Mothering is still good.
I keep thinking that this will be my last pregnancy. I forget about the m/s. I can't believe there isn't a good cure. Although, there have been treatments in the past that have lead to horrible outcomes for future generations. I do hold on to the notion that m/s is a sign of a healthy, well planted pregnancy. I prayed for this baby, and God heard my prayer. I prayed against totally incapacitating m/s but accepted a little bit to ease my mind. Miscarriage is always a fear for most women. Weird rationalizations.
I wish Kurt wouldn't sit in my spot on the couch. I wish I had more help around the house. Even getting my energy back would be a big help! I'm so tired but can't really sleep. So annoying. But I'm still blessed.
